the other side of one sided.

this frog is a permanent resident in my throat. i feel dizzy everyday. i am not sure of anything except that i am feeling somethings. and these little things that are making this heart throb are sorta blowing my mind. i am 25. that means i have been crazy for 25 years. i watch people dance with a serious smirk that i am aware of. a face that i make that i have been told looks "sad, mad or bored". but i am takin it in. watching the people live the way i am not living. and i live in my head and they in theirs and that is why i watch them. perhaps in envy..or not. some of them i watch and think 'how do they live this way?' or 'why can't i live that way?'

everything has always been serious. i am a un-light hearted human with nothing but pure un-light thoughts and always try to think about the other side to my one-sided thoughts, which is why i can never make decisions, because i run my head around in football fields of circles.

sugar is what should make me sweet, but boys always seem to make me sweeter.