lessons

i wana sign up fer guitar lessons now that i dropped outta school. i wana b a real riot gurrl. perhaps this will help me decide to be a lesbian? thatd rock, i think i would be a great lesbian. i do love the L word. and some chicks are HOT. and they smell better, most the time. maybs i will play the acoustic guitar and pull an ani difranco. no. thanks, tho.
i want to take yoga too. the kind where u sweat of bunch of toxins out. cleanse me, man. set me free.
i wana learn something. anything. maybe how to be a real person, that might be cool. LEARN HOW TO LIVE, 10$ on craigslist. It could provide general overviews of things you shouldn't do...like drugs and drinking. Then move into seminars on being motivated to go to school and inspired to get a job that you work hard at. and then maybe throw in a boyfriend class for those incapable of that area of life skills that trains you in not being a needy, selfish, psycho who comes on super strong, and picks unavailable heartthrobs that are seriously in need of some therapy themselves.

YEAH. I have sorta thought, this sickness in my head might just be PURE boredom. But then i remember when i wasn't bored and was busy all the time and had a great boyfriend...and i hated that too. i am just not a happy person. which is sorta awesome sometimes....cuz people laugh at my bitter personality. it's actually earned me a pretty decent amount of friends who love my "shit sux" anger towards most things.

today was better than yesterday. probs cuz i wasn't hungover at all or dwelling on certain things as much today. i am determined to make tomrrow a fun Bobby Joe Ebola show, no matter what i see and feel. i have a strong feeling my heart will be breaking, just a tad...but i am trying to prepare for that moment. BEST part is, i deal with everything horribly wrong, and my shitty plan for tomorrow is to makeout with someone else as soon as possible to distract me from whatever might happen.
GOOD JOB MOPO....handle that shit!